Loss of self.Posted on: 16 января, 2019, by : admin
«I think I can feel this figure inside me, but it’s so elusive.» As the existential philosopher Kierkegaard writes, » how imaginary are our feelings, knowledge, and will?»
From his point of view, when we forget our real feelings, stop being aware of ourselves , and only know when our will turns into infinitely distant goals that are too far away to have enough strength for them-we lose our self.
Imagine an ordinary young woman from Moscow who wants to have a happy life. She is quite able to cope with her security ( she has enough money), but she does not understand at all what she wants next. In her head live the ideas of a family and a successful career. And where the career is successful-it becomes easier, but if the inspiration is lost inside the work-it is more difficult. And if there is a family — then, of course, it is calmer. If not, it is a point of despair.
The despair that the woman is experiencing torments her, and she begins to search for answers, somewhere outside:
⁃ if I look good, I will be successful!
⁃ If I know how to behave, I will succeed!
⁃ If I pull myself together, then I will definitely manage.
But the essence of life is that the further you are from your real feelings and experiences , the more powerfully they will pull you towards them and immobilize you. This is the loss of self. And then there is a fear of meeting your Self, because the only thing that is inside is horror and despair, sometimes boredom.
In fact, the search for oneself is about maintaining oneself in all the variety of its hopeless imperfections. But the path itself and the encounter with oneself are the only things that make sense of our life. This is our mission, and the only one that is inevitable.